As per usual, I get close to breaking 240, and I sabotage myself. I am frustrated and annoyed at myself. Snarl. I am very growly at myself. Grrrr…I am trying to figure out why. What on earth am I so terrified about? I have explored many things that I already know. I am comfortable being at this weight. I also know that comfortable isn’t always healthy.
I have restarted studying to be a health and wellness coach. I finished two chapters this weekend. I am going to try to finish another chapter today. I have three left. Then I have the test. Once I pass this, then I can take the weight loss class.
I am wondering if boredom is part of my issue. I know I am spending more money than usual—some on positive and redecoration projects. But also on piddle crap that I don’t really need. This is often a signal of me sliding out of control and the constant sabotaging my health goals.
So, I am trying to change things up a bit. I purchased the PIYO DVDs. I am going to add this to my activity. I am hoping this helps gets me on track and doing what I know I need to do–and what I want to do. I want better health. I want to be able to hike. I want to buy a camera and start taking photos while I am out and abouting. I see the life I want, but I keep preventing myself from getting it.
So, I am trying again this week–staying in my calorie range, being active, focusing on health, and changing my life.