I will be honest. Since I moved home from Virginia in 2011, life has been a struggle. There have been many wonderful moments and some healthy times, but there was always pain, an all-over, sometimes debilitating pain. There was a point when I was on a cane and could not stand for more than a minute because my lower back would seize up. I even had a disability placard.
It took a lot of struggling, but I started walking, and I lost 50 pounds. I still had issues standing, but I could walk. I barely finished a half marathon, but I did. I also destroyed my body doing so. I developed plantar fasciitis in my right foot. I could barely stand again. And I gained 60 pounds, and the ability to stand and walk decreased. I ballooned up to 340 pounds. My entire body hurt, and I battled with constant fatigue. Needless to say, I didn’t have much of a quality of life. I tried many times to start losing weight. Up and down and up and down. I could never maintain it until now.
What is so different? I listen to my body. I started small, and I listen. When I need to rest, I rested. When I can walk, I walk. I always log my food. I started with Noom, then I stopped paying and switched to My Fitness Pal. I keep in mind some of what I learned with Noom. But, I also hold myself accountable here and on FB and IG.
I have lost 70 pounds! Wow! It makes a difference. I also started treatment for psoriatic arthritis and psoriasis. My all-over pain is diminished. Sometimes, it isn’t there. I do have aches and pains, but nothing like before. Last night, I had an amazing moment.
After work, I went to the grocery store. I grabbed a few things to make a Spanish tortilla (think potato and egg frittata) for dinner. Oh yeah, and milk. I grabbed a basket and picked up the items and checked out. I didn’t grab a cart to lean on. I came home and did about 20 minutes of prep, including slicing potatoes, whisking eggs, grating cheese, and chopping artichoke hearts and shallots. I fried the potatoes, assembled the frittata, and stuck it in the oven. Then, I cleaned up the kitchen. I NEVER SAT DOWN. I just did it. There was no pain in my back or hips. I just did it.
Then, last night when I went to bed, my right foot started to hurt. It hurt enough that I couldn’t get to sleep. I also didn’t sleep well. So, I taped the foot, and I decided that today I would rest. Tomorrow I will walk. Once again, I am thinking about going on a hike. I have learned not to make concrete plans because my body may have different ideas.
But overall, my quality of life is so much better. I can actually do things and not think about it. I just can do. Wow! This is an amazing change. I am also very grateful.
Always remember to be kind…especially to yourself.