YAY! It is Saturday! It is also after 8 pm, and I am just now checking in with everyone. So, instead of drinking coffee and eating breakfast, I am eating roasted Brussels Sprouts, cauliflower, potato, zucchini, bell pepper, and fennel for dinner. (I try and have some meatless meals to help with my cholesterol and to be a better steward of the planet.) As you can see, I broke 260, and I am at 259 pounds. Woo hoo! It took a while to get the scale to start moving again. You can see my Progress!! here. To be honest, there are times I don’t recognize myself.
My body has been going through an adjustment period. Sixty-four pounds is a lot of weight and a lot of change. There are times my body just needs a moment to catch up. So, I bounced up and down for quite a bit. But, I am in no hurry. My body will do what it needs its own time.
This week was rough–mentally, emotionally, and physically. I am still settling in about psoriatic arthritis. While it feels good to have a probable name for my issues, it is also scary. I had joined an online support group to hopefully get some ideas about what to expect. And it wasn’t a positive experience. But I have incredible support from my friends and family. I know I will get through these changes.
I did have a wonderful thing happen today. A friend on FB sent me a message asking for advice on losing weight. I told her what I am doing because that is what I know. But what was so wonderful is that she (and yes, several others on FB) said how happy I look. And I am happy.
I am thrilled with the changes in my life. Overall, I am in a much better place–mind, body, and soul. The smiles people see in FB with my morning walks are genuine. I am happy and proud of myself. My mind is in a much better place, and it is much easier to negotiate my world now there is less of me.
However, I don’t want to create a false impression of my life. I still suffer from exhaustion. My joints are swollen, and each one hurts a lot today (and most days). And recently, I have started having numb patches in my lower back. So, behind the smile, I am still battling all the same issues as before I started losing weight.
While I live with pain and exhaustion, I don’t want to live in my chronic illness. My illness isn’t who I am. It is what I deal with day-to-day. I accomplish what I do because I love myself. I believe in my body. I believe I can do it. So, I do (with varying degrees of success and failure).
So, I want to leave you all with this–Love, Patience, and Consistency.
Love yourself, unconditionally. When you do, you can make lasting changes for the better.
Have patience with yourself. Treat yourself as you would someone you love.
Finally, be consistent in your life. It helps to make those changes permanent.
Have a wonderful week.
LLC & Hazel