After over a week of feeling like death from sheer fatigue, I am finally feeling somewhat better. When I say fatigue, I don’t mean I am tired. Getting more sleep will not help. Fatigue is a symptom of an auto-immune issue. I did, at one point, get a diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia. I am questioning that diagnosis with some recent developments, but that is a different blog.
I am grateful that the fatigue seems to have passed. I still have swollen joints, which cause pain throughout my body. The psoriasis is getting worse. There is now an outbreak on the right arm, which is getting worse daily and on both my feet.
So, while I am functioning better, I am not great. But I think I am back on track with eating and walking. I am still giving myself a lot of downtime to rest. I am grateful for any improvement. I am giving myself grace when I can’t do something.
My weight gain stabilized at 274.2 pounds. Yes, 13 pounds in a week and a half. So, I am back working on my second goal, and I have 13.2 pounds to lose to get there. I am not snarling and snapping about the weight gain. It is what it is, and I am working to get back where I was in a healthy manner that honors the state of my body.
Mentally, I am focusing on what my body needs to feel better. My body is so furious. There is a lot to work through to get to the place where I am in sync mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I still talk to myself in the mirror every morning. I tell myself that no matter what, I love myself and with love, patience, and consistency, I will find better health.
Wishing you good health and remember to be kind…especially to yourself.
LLC & Hazel