Self-Sabotage and the Support of Strangers

What does self-sabotage look like? It looks a lot like me! Last week, I reached my second goal of 62 pounds released. I also made a few HUGE decisions focusing on health/fitness, my future, and changing my life 100%. And I got scared. This is on top of the scariness of releasing large amounts of weight.

And instead of saying, “I am scared,” I play sabotage games. Procrastinating, not eating well, and all the while, pretending that everything is okay.

I took a step back and took a breath. I need to release weight. Even if I do nothing else, I need to do that to be healthy and hopefully survive this pandemic. I also need to do this to have an active older age. I need to overcome the fear of being seen, noticed, and, yes, vulnerable. I need to figure out how to engage the world instead of being happy that I am overlooked.

As for the other part, I have at least 1.5 years before any hard decisions need to be made. But, I also have 1.5 years to create a plan that eases decision making.

I am also very grateful for my FB group of others like me who are losing a large amount of weight. Today, they reminded me to look beyond the right now, and look to the big picture. Why am I doing this? What do I want from this? How do I see myself when I reach my goal? They make stop the pity-party and do the hard work of commitment. They always help support, celebrate, empathize, encourage, and inspire me. I hope I provide for them what they give to me, for what they give me is invaluable.

I am on track. I am in the program. I am doing what I need to do. And now, I am getting off the computer and practicing my self-care.

Wishing you peace and good health,

LLC & Hazel

3 thoughts on “Self-Sabotage and the Support of Strangers

  1. You add so much to the lives and journeys of the strangers you talk about. We all know, but not always at the same time, that what matters is the big picture, the ultimate why, where we want to be and what do we want to do. But then we forget and lose sight of it – and we all get scared. So we help each other remember that stuff. It’s not just “rah rah, you did great” but also “Do you know why you did that? What inspires you? How did you feel when X happened?” Thank YOU for your honesty and support. It was our turn to support you. That’s how we roll, that’s how we get there.

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